Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Where our focus lies

The services for Lilliana Grace were hard. But, they glorified God in a way that I'm not sure I've ever seen before, and for that, I was truly thankful.

My ability to trust in God to provide the absolute best in my life grew this weekend, because of that sweet baby, and because of her parents. Even though we went to Chicago because of unbelievably difficult circumstances, I can truly say that, all in all, it was a very good weekend.

Aimee blogged a bit about that day, and about how life is to look from here on out. She has been a rock. A pillar of strength. An amazing example to me. To everyone.

Don't get me wrong. She is sad. She is hurting. She misses her daughter, and misses the moments that she will never have with her this side of heaven. But, that is not where her focus lies, and that is obvious to everyone around her.

As for me, I'm choosing to do the same thing she is: to focus on the blessings that are right here in front of me, rather than what I do not have. My family, my husband, my children--there are absolutely too many blessings in my life to name them all!

Thank you Lord, for each and every blessing you have ever given me. Even for the ones you have taken away when I thought it was too soon for them to go. You know far better than I. Your ways are not my ways. You are infinitely more wise and loving than I will ever understand. Thank you for always doing what is best for me, even when it seems like it is more difficult than I can bear. Help me to always have my faith and trust in You, no matter what the circumstances of my life look like.

Thank you again, to each one of you who emailed, texted, called, sent cards, and prayed for our family through this terribly difficult time. It is appreciated more than you may ever know.


Megan said...

I stumbled on your blog for the first time today. I was struck by the similarity of your family's recent tragedy with the one my family is currently experiencing. My sister, Amy, went in for a c-section on April 30th only to find out that her son's heart had stopped beating hours before. I wanted to tell you how sorry I am for the loss of your niece. I know how devastating this is for an entire family. Your family, particularly your sister and brother in law, will be in my prayers.

Homegrown Tribe said...

Still praying... I can not even imagine the pain.


Kara said...

Love you!!! Don't have the words, but praying God does! You have amazing faith and are an inspiration!

Jen said...

Still praying for you and your family. What a wonderful testimony both you and Aimee have been and can be in the future for the glory of God. He does give us so many blessings and I so often forget that. Today (and hopefully everyday) I will make a special effort to count my blessings. And, you are one of them Dev. Thanks for being such a great friend! Consider yourself counted! :)

Natalie said...

Praying the Lord just wrap his arms around your family with peace, and a big hug. You're right we definitely need to always be grateful for every blessing even if it's only for a short time and even if we don't understand ;D

Natalie in CA

Amanda Hoyt said...

Hi Devin,
I'm still praying for you and your family. I hope today was a good day for you.
Hugs and prayers,